I have read quite a few posts written by some very talented individuals on "Backspace". While, I did relate with them but I never really fully understood it until recently.

Backspace = Things you want to say, but hold on from saying it out loud

Backspace = Few things are best left unsaid

Backspace = Fear of causing trouble for someone

Backspace = Fear of what you said not being acknowledged

Backspace = typing typing typing typing...... Nah.. it's okay, he doesn't need to know this

Backspace = Hidden emotions

I have never thought much before saying anything out loud. What is there in my head or in my heart, is what comes out of my mouth. I don't filter it, I don't polish it. Raw is what I believe in with people closest to me. But, off late, I have been a lot more careful, I have measured my words more than I can ever remember doing, I have written and erased multiple sentences because I was not sure if I should be saying what I actually wanted to say. There is this fear in me now, which holds me back from saying what I want to. I weigh my words, I think, I read it from the other person's point of view and then I erase most of what I have initially written or wanted to say. I guess it is better this way. Isn't it?

Now, when I think of "Backspace" or rather now when I understand it in its entirety, all I can think of is one of the most beautiful & my favourite line by Gulzar Saab:

"बड़ी लम्बी गुफ्तगू करनी है,

तुम आना एक पूरी ज़िंदगी ले कर"

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